Yes, at 21, I actually feel old. I guess it is true like they say, that age is relative.
Although it is only a small two year gap between us third years and the first years, I can't help thinking that we are so very different.
I have had more than one experience with irresponsible people. But choir auditions and practices this year have given me more than my fair share ! >.<
Those who do not come for practices without informing you.
Those who "forgot" there was a practice even after having been reminded repeatedly.
Those who say yes, they are willing to commit, and then never to see their batang hidung anywhere thereafter.
Those who tell you, yes they will be there for a make-up audition session, and you get there early just for the sake of giving them a fair chance to find that there is nobody there. And you end up waiting for an hour for nothing.
It's quite perplexing isn't it?
Maybe it's just me then.
If it were me,
I would, at least, inform seniors/committee members that I will not be able to make it.
I would make a note, a reminder, anything, to make sure I remember to turn up for practice.
If I have given my commitment, I would stay committed. Meaning, come for practices, work hard. If I doubt I can give my commitment, to actually say so, straightforward, rather than lie.
I would call to find out what happened, turn up early for the audition, apologize profusely if I'm late. But at the very least, to actually turn up when there are people expecting me.
But I guess other people are not me.
It's frustrating sometimes.
But whatever. No more second chances.
However, to be fair, there are those who are committed. There are those who faithfully come for practices, who show enthusiasm, who try hard, who are willing to give their time, who even come for both weekday practices even when you are only required to come for one.
Thank God for them, rare as they are.
They give me hope. :D
I'm too soft, that's why. Maybe I need to have a harder exterior, a stricter demeanor.
Then maybe other people will take me seriously.
Then maybe such frustrating things will not happen.
Even after I typed that sentence I find it hard to believe. =.=
Ugh. I sound like a bitter, pessimistic old maid.
Maybe I am old >.<